How do you keep yourself alive?

[Lucifer]

Life has been pretty bad for me lately and I'm probably a little depressed. I notice that I'm near my limit when I started Google terms like "painless ways to kill yourself" and such.

I've tried the following methods to forget about the idea but they don't seem to have much effect:

1. Inhale lots of fresh air in the early morning.
2. Watch anime & read manga (including Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei)
3. Sleep and take showers frequently.
4. Think joyful thoughts.
5. Translate and edit manga scanlations.
6. Read Buddhism articles about life after death if you commit suicide.
7. Read newspapers and watch TV about people with harsh life and how they cope with it.

I could use some fresh ideas before it's too late. Think I'm joking? I wish...
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[Ropponmatsu]

In my opinion, the most important thing in life is to find the meaning of your life. Now I'm not talking about the answer, but instead, what do you want to do? What do you want to be?

I think that you cannot stress enough the importance of allowing yourself to do what makes you happy. There is no reason to just accept your current situation without question, just as there is no reason to live according to the expectations of the people around you.

In the case of myself, I love to study Japanese, and I love the Japanese culture. I'm currently studying Japanese at the University of Stockholm in Sweden, to be able to move there when I am confident enough in my ability. You've got to allow yourself to live! Do not let yourself think 'it can't happen'. Believe! And make it happen!

I don't know if any of this make sense to you, or if it concerns whatever it is that is nibbling at the spark of life in your soul, however I believe that this is all fundamental in each and everyone's quest for happiness! ^_^
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[trueline]

In one statement you can get better I think. Close your open wound inside yourself which is the source of your depression. Since you said "Life has been pretty bad for me lately" then there must be bad things happened that make you depressed so maybe solving these problems will change you.

You shouldnt've read such terms that motivate you o do so =/

There some steps I read from others sites and it might help you a bit, I hope.
1. Don't overwork.
2. Get enough sleep.
3. Don't be a perfectionist.
4. Solve the little problems.
5. Treat your body well.
6. Learn to relax.
7. Change your attitude.
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[ultimasome]

Ah Lucifer finally dropped by here to have a li chat with us. Glad to have this moment ^^
Before I say anything, how old are you? If you dont mind ^^;

You forgot to mention
8. Having nice trip with friends.
9. Family chit chat.
10. Exercise.
11. Satying alone for a lil time.

I once tried to suicide but now I dont even dare to do so. Life is hard but if you learn how to get long with it it'll become more than easier to continue living. Hope I'm of help ^^
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[PsiKro]

I don't exactly love life either, but it all comes down to this when you're unhappy about it:

Find out whats wrong and change it - if possible. If it were something like school for example, thats quite easy to rectify if you just really put your mind to it. Of course, it could be something more complex, but what it comes down it is how hard you're willing to try. Personally, I don't have much willpower to drastically change myself and get over whats wrong, so instead I stick with option 2:

Live with it. Whatevers making you unhappy can either be changed or it can't. Either way, you just have to realize that thats the way things are, and go around it. Afterall, if you can't fix it, whats the point in worrying about it? It's like getting angry at yourself for not being able to fly. That isn't your fault, and even if that was a bad example, there are other things you can look forward to. Think about other aspects of your life and try to stay away from whatevers making you unhappy.

I mean, you can try things like playing sports, watching anime, etc to empty your mind, but it all comes down to your own willpower and ability to let go of those depressing thoughts. If you can't, talking to friends and family really helps. Hang out with people that value you other than those that don't. You'll feel better about yourself.

I don't know if that helped, it feels like I was basically just rambling and being repititive, but hey, I've been there, I've been depressed and still am sometimes. These are just my thoughts on it and how I've dealt with it.

[Cherry-Kun]

ultima> you tried to suicide once?

was it during that time we had a lil chat over the msn?

well Lucifer. ill tell you what i said to ultima and do to you what i cant do to ultima since shes a woman


*slaps!*

you are not the owner of your life. thus, you cant take it away.
life is a gift that God gives to us and with it we must do all the good we can.

we each have a reason to be here and a motivation as Roppon said.
for example, and this is very personal. im living each day just to find the woman thatll be my wife............yeah, im too much of a dreamer, but thats my motivation. ive come to think that perhaps i wont meet her until i learn what is "to love".........i feel sad some times coz i want to be with her now, whomever she is, but thats all. i should feel very depressed by her absence in my life, but if i were to end my life, then who would love her more than me if i was borned to lover her forever?

................damn........how mushy x9

take a time to think alone, get on a journey of self discovery!!! as in animes x9, that might help. find your motivation in life

if you believe in God ask him for help. if you dont, ask anyways, who knows what can happen?

gotta go back to work now

later!
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[Xristyan]

lucifer>> your remedies for trying to not think of suicide is kinda off... i mean... like you still have the topic of death in mind with those so called remedies of yours...

hmmm... i guess its your perspective in life... are you feeling that there is something lacking in your life???

i don't know if this would be any help but...

try excercising... and no not in your own room, go to a gym and talk to people as well... don't bother too much about the health nuts... its unhealthy...

if you are up to it... try doing some charitable or community work...

try something new... like maybe play an instrument or a sport...

try travelling as well...

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but then again, travelling has its own stresses... so erm... yeah...

anyways... you have to have a positive outlook in life... it all starts with your thinking... have a optimistic perspective on life and maybe it will work out...

hope everything goes well for you...

and if you still want to commit suicide then that means you totally fail in life... since that means you have truly given up and have failed...

you will only truly fail if you give up, and suicide is one blatant way of saying you lose and have given up...

just a thought...
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[07cbdj]

I'm not at the top myself. I'm a little like Cherry-kun, waiting for my love to appear, but I started to doubt the very existence of Love. What keeps me alive now, is that I can find the joy in 'little somethings'. I think it helps a lot that I'm a very calm person and it's hard to make me really pissed.

As for comitting suicide... I thought about it too. But! You should think of those who love You and would miss You (family, friends, A-S users etc). Also think of the oppurtunities You would miss by dieing early.

I think if You want to get over with Your depression, the first thing to do is to change how You perceive the world. Be calm, don't overdo anything and be patient. Everything is only a matter of time. Also You should pay more attention to Your environment. Catch the beauty of the autumn scenery, a lonely tree in the city, the lovely feeling when You see a cute cat. Also when You're reading these replies You should note that there are people, who have never ever seen You, but like to help You. If You look closer You'll see that beside bad things, good things also surround You, they're just harder to spot and this makes them more valuable.

These are the things in Life that's worth living.
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[giggity]

ok lucifer im gonna try and stop u from killing urself because i dont want to see that happen ever. like if u stopped posting on A-S all of a sudden O_O
i recently read a book about a suicidal teenager, first off before i start saying stuff i recommend u read this book. its called : After the death of Anna Gonzalez

before u end ur life permanently u have to think. do u really think ur life is bad enuff for u to end it urself?? think about the dying people in africa that strive to live on.
the kids in Ethiopia that are starving to death. wanting to live, while decaying away by starvation.
You my friend have a wonderfully good life. We all take our life for granted and we should realize that.

last thing im gonna say is a quote that i discovered that fits perfectly to this

"Suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problem."

just think about it man.. dont do any crazy things to hurt urself
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[Ani_MaSTeR]

sorry to hear that Luc, i never figured u for someone like that.

we've all had ups and downs, thing to remember is to reflect on the times that it made u happy.
for me, i wanted to die so many times, but thefact that i had friends in japan that i wanted to see again helped me to keep on truckin'.

i guess what u might need is a change of scenery.
if possible, book a holiday, travel to somewhere u've never been.
or, do what u want for a day.
just anything that u want, dont matter if others say 'u cant do it,' or 'thats illegal' just do it.
spend one whole day doing what luc wants.

i hope things get better for ya man.
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[Bowser]

What helpped me was keeping buisy. And I'm not necessarily talking about watching tv or reading manga. Because thats procrastinating, even thought its fun and distracts, they sadly arnt accomplishments and so your usualy left feeling worst off.

Best I can suggest then is getting a job and simply socialising more, and by that I dont meen hang out with friends all the time, thought that helps... but maybe join a club or society. All this sounds cheesy and like a hassle, but trust me, when you think back on it you'll think you'v accomplished somthing.
Thought if your gonna do that, make sure its a job.club you enjoy of course... no point doing it otherwise.

Thats as far as my advice goes, rest is up to you realy... gotta have the will to want to change your ways too.

sorry you feel this way, but good luck too =)

[Lucifer]

I haven't had a decent sleep these few days. I would suddenly woke up at night and found myself asleep for less than 20 minutes, which is kinda depressing.

Just thinking how I should die is definitely a good way to relieve stress. I would then remind myself that my death will not benefit anyone. My family will have to spend more money for my funeral and such, and that alone keeps me alive at least for now.
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[spankit]

i dunno, i think contemplating suicide, although not healthy,
is a part of life. because everyone goes through times when
they just want to go "fuck it all."

personally i was really close to it. just sitting and staring at
bottles and bottles of pills. and to a certain extent i've tried it.
took half a bottle of pills and nearly passed out halfway through
school. ended up throwing up and feeling like hell froze over,
not fun at all.


personally instead, i was thinking of who the hell would care
after i died. and at that point i really thought that no one would
and that ultimately no matter what i was killing myself for. they'd
feel sorry for me and regret the rest of their lives. i was so very
wrong.

you see. you accomplish nothing dying.

in a more realistic sense, you're just causing yourself to make
an even less of an impression on those you care about. all you
can really do as everyone has said. is just to look forward to
the future instead of hating it. think about what you've always
wanted to do and the goals you've thought of during times when
life wasn't so shitty. then think of all the things you've already done
towards that goal and ultimately, what you have to finish doing
to get there.

i mean sure life sucks. but obviously there's going to be better
times in the future, and you never know what kinda opportunities
might arise if you're well....dead. personally i never thought i'd
be able to meet that awesome people i have, nor go to japan and
what nots. thinking about it. i'd have regretted so much if i had
died that night cause i would've never discovered all the things now.

as for the sleeping... you really need to relax. maybe get a psychiatrist?
talk it out with someone? you're just too stressed and i guess
when you get to a point of being stressed, you become very morbid
and depressed. it also doesn't help that these thoughts cause lack
of sleep. if you really have to, maybe talk to your doctor for sleeping
pills or anti-depressants.
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