change for the worse

V16Dragon · Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 12:36 pm Post subject: change for the worse

not too long ago about a half a year to a year now i fought with my cousin, this was our first fight ever, i think the fight was about him going through his god-sisters room and reading a letter she had, i got upset over that and we started to argue, but long before the arguement i had noticed that he wasn't him self lately he had strayed off from who he used to be,

it was like naruto and sasuke where sasuke ventured into the dark, thats what i felt my cousin was headed towards, it took a good 2 months for me to start hanging out with my cousin again (he's one of my best-friends), but not too long after we started hanging out he started to talk to me about how i'm not preparred for things and how i need to get stronger he wanted me to stray away from the kind and carring me, and become some one i didn't want to be,

i payed no attention to it at all, at least thats what i thought, not to long ago i was asked to help him in a battle, i agreeded, but the day the battle came nothing happened thankfully, but as i was standing their ready to fight, i had noticed that he seemed eager to fight, he was happy to hurt someone, that angered me, but i didn't do anything then, later that nite we fought again this time over the fact that he wanted to hurt someone, (i have alway hated needless battles, and believed that you should only fight if you have too, that it should be your final option), and i found that the fight he wanted me in was a needless one,

now it has been 2 months since i seen my cousin, and i seem to notice that i have started to change, into the person that i didn't want to become, his words really did affect me, but it got to me slowly, slowly changing my being, i find my self pushing away my friends my family,

i told my elder cousin about my changing, and he told me that i was going through hormone changes that he was the same way, but he on the other hand took it a bad way that he thought everyone was out to get him, and that i was pretty smart for being able to realize these changes that occured in me, and he told me that my other cousin (also one of my best friends) was concerned about me that she asked him what happened to me, one minute i was talking about helping the poor and creating a power source for the world, and the next minute i was talking about how i hate every one,

i was glad that she carred about me, but i keep on pushing her away, always going off to be alone, i know my problem but i can't fix it, i have become a total ass hole, i know that its not my cousins fault for i am the one to blame

thank you for taking the time to listen to my sob story
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sayoku · Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 1:12 pm Post subject:

cool your head down, take some time out. put some logic into things, you know it yourself whats the right thing to do.
dont worry too much about it, relax a little. this is a phases a lot of people go through. your elder cousin is right, and im sure they dont really blame you.
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macerboy · Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 1:16 pm Post subject:

Post these kind of ideas in the longest thread ever.. we don't want it to become to angsty in here hehe.... whoa sorry I had a brain bloop there... I locked the wrong topic

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sayoku · Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 1:59 pm Post subject:

what the...? i was just about to ask...
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1ce · Posted: Fri Aug 19, 2005 12:37 am Post subject:

Interesting...
But take a look at this quote.
"All that we are is a result of what we have thought. What we think we become."---Buddha
Your cousin just playing mind tricks with you. You haven't really become a bad person. You only THINK you're one.

There should be no reason why a person should plunge into despair or be angry at the world for no reason - It's not logical.

Take a few moments to think of whats really bothering you. If it doesn't work, get wasted and you'll forget you're a bad person. Twisted Evil

Good luck for the future.

frozen_chicken · Posted: Fri Aug 19, 2005 1:08 am Post subject:

people change whether its good or bad, you just have to live with it. in the end when they change, their real personality is shown.

Jsy3k · Posted: Fri Aug 19, 2005 1:29 am Post subject:

Changes are things that always happen, be it be our personality, appearance and a lot of things. Characters may also change, but in the end, you are the one that allows yoruself to change. You can choose not to follow your "asshole" thought, but also at the same time, you can follow them.

In the end, what I can say that if this bothers you, try to consult with your closest family member and try to think through and reflect on it. Do not be down just because you have changed. It is normal. Reflect and change slowly. Do not rush things.

Just remember one thing, YOU have the power to change yourself. Yeah, some people will say it is yoru mixing up environment, but it is just a catalyst. If you have good self control, I bet that you won't be affected even though you frequently exist in that kind of environment.
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V16Dragon · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 1:12 am Post subject:

aaahh thanks for all the advices, they all really make sense and help out alot
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ladyarakune · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 6:52 pm Post subject:

everyone goes through changes, and angsty times, its good that you have your elder cousin to help you with these things. it will all get better, dont worry
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CGY · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 6:54 pm Post subject:

Actually, that depends on one's self... if you like the way you are, don't change... You are yourself, no one else, you listen to what your heart tells you!

ladyarakune · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 7:09 pm Post subject:

ranmatsu · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 11:30 pm Post subject:

People always grow and change, its something you cant stop, only influence

1ce · Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 11:35 pm Post subject:

V16Dragon · Posted: Tue Aug 23, 2005 2:25 am Post subject:

so your saying my cousin persuaded me to change, damn it, ooh well i've decided to take your advices and not think about it too much and except whats going to become of me, for better or for worse, if i think about it too much how i don't want to thats only gonna make it worse so i'm gonna just let it all go, just go with the flow, thats more like me
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Jsy3k · Posted: Tue Aug 23, 2005 2:36 am Post subject: